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Excerpt from ‘I Gained Weight’ via Fit Mama Training

So I’ve taken more rest days in the last month than I have in almost 2 years.  Not being able to workout is really hard for me.  It has become a very important part of my mental health and I look forward to it (almost) everyday.It makes me feel strong, refreshed, clear-headed, calm and powerful.  I did not feel those things lying on the couch with a box of kleenex.

Holidays happened.  I ate well.  And by well I mean prime rib and mashed potatoes.  I had every intention of eating the amazing holiday food, just not all the mediocre stuff before.  And that I did. 

My stomach has also been jacked up in this mess so I wasn’t able to rest and eat lots of fresh produce.  I don’t know about you, but when my stomach is churning a big leafy spinach pile doesn’t sound like a good idea.

So I gained weight.  Not a lot.  My measurements have changed.  Not a lot.  But I am bigger than I was at the beginning of last month.  Here’s the kicker. 

I don’t give a shit.

Isn’t that amazing?  I think it’s amazing. 

For my entire life I have been acutely aware of my size.  All the time.  I can’t remember a social occasion/school dance/ college party that I walked into and didn’t immediately think “I’m the fattest one here.”  Man, that’s sad.  Sometimes I don’t even realize the extent of my own former demons until  I post them for the world to see.  But we are only as healthy as our secrets, and  being fearful of admitting my own doesn’t help anyone.

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